Jasmine Lim Tze Huan, ♥ AngTengXiang
Eighteen, SixteenJanuary
SixFebruary2010, One.Year Four.Month

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The difference in my hairstyle (:


Last posting for the week, next week not going to update i guess but still if have time i will update (:
Tomorrow having my Science Physic Paper 2 but im here blogging, facebooking and listening to songs

Seriously i don't know why was i feeling like this just after a video i watch -_-
ya, perhaps it my low self-confidence bahs.
My mind is clear now, nothing i know clearly what i feel and what i want.

Till now i know how hard is to keep myself happy everyday.
I can't be like yesterday so happy and keep on laughing, there is always things don't allow me to do so.
Yea now i know what kill my happiness and positive. Jealousy and hatred is major and affect me the most of all.
Sometime i hoped my jealousy wasn't so strong and i wasn't that possessive. It kill my mood a lot, so at time i tend to change of mood.
Jealousy make me have low self-confident and hatred make me look ugly, i only think of having revenge no matter what.
Hais, totally cries in despair. Reminding me of thinking back to the past, the fight we hads the mistake i done and repeat and the things you do.

Hahaa, but still don't feel as negative as before but my venomous mind is stronger than before.
I seem not like that good, now i thinking of more evil stuff. ohmygod i suspect i got possessed.
Anyways 飛輪海 got new album ohmygod their 心疼妳的心疼, i love this song (:
Oh, i agree their lyrics totally ! it match my thinking and feeling totally.

如果說後悔可以殺一個人我已經為妳死掉 多少次了呢

心疼妳的心疼 想緊緊把妳抱著去彌補從前所有不完整

再也不會讓妳受傷了我已完全明白愛能教人心多疼

♥ ohmygod :D
okaysokays, going to offline le. update once i have mood and time ! Nights!

Chio-ness !



Some sort of pig ? -_-

Kangaroo :D


Red butt, hahaa !


Ohmygod !

Bi, wet (: Thanks to me, see im pro!

Ohoh, boyfriend blend into background


Yay ! I enjoy today a lot a lot :D Yup, today went to Singapore Zoo with boyfriend
Wake up quite late cause im really super tired ):
Walk over to baby's house around 11am, waited for him to wake up and prepare (: Left his house around 1pm ++

Lrted to Chuachukang then 927 to mandai :D
It was raining in the earlier part )': but it didn't spoil our day for Zoo :D
Was keep on taking photos, and talking about animals.
We both look like a kid over there (: Looking around for animals and all other things.
Hehs, seriously it been a long time since we really went out like this ? )': Somehow miss this feeling.

Alrights, didn't want to talk much shall just post the photos ♥

Gonna update since there is sometime before i go out (:
Started my O's paper yesterday, english language paper 1 and 2 -_- no confident at all.
Today mathematic paper 1 ==! Feel like im sure gonna fail.
Tomorrow mathematic paper 2, got a bad feeling tomorrow going to be hard ):

My O's end at 12 Nov ): it so freaking long
i need money and work. today my cousin's bff helped me to check out a job place.
Hopefully i get it ? (: please. hehs

i really can't wait for my own chalet uhs ! ♥

Now who really know how i feel. I really hope someone just walk over infront of me stab hard into my heart.
I don't want anymore heart pain, the worst things is it slowly become heart cold.
I been telling myself no matter how pain your heart is, how cold you feeling and how much you wanted to cry so much. You must endure, must endure till the end cause everything will pay off.
Hoping it really end up well but as time passes till now it never end up well instead the pain getting too deep and it tearing my heart apart.

I don't feel well at all, i feel shag. I just want to stay beside you but you know i really don't know which time to stay which time leave.
When i don't leave you would say im don't care about you at all,
when i don't stay you would say i always leave you alone.
You ownself tell me what to do, tell me. I do this also not right do that also not right.
Is this my fault or your too fussy or change your mind to easily.

You know when the more we fight the more insecure i feel. I feel lesser love from you, no matter how boy character im. I still have girl feeling, i need you to give me love first before i can give you.
Let me feel secure first before i can give you love. Thing goes two way and not only to you only.
You want me give you constant love and care but me ? When i give you, you return back a little only.
Your little love and care is my energy, the more you give the longer and constant love and care i can give you.

you say i don't need to care so much about you, how you want me to do that.
I totally can't don't care about you. I care what you think, i care what you say, i care your feeling, i care about your everything.
Don't say i force you, i don't want to force you to say anything also. I want you to tell me yourself but i know you won't.
So what can i do when you don't want to tell me. i only have to keep on asking and asking you.

Seriously when we two become like that. i don't want, i don't want we become so cold.
Im cold enough already, i need you to warm me up.
I want you to be with me no matter what happen and be the same you.
The one that love me a lot a lot and will show your love to me without me showing it first.
When your temper is not good want to throw your temper can throw it at me don't need to control it.
I already learn how to take your temper already.
Where are my laogong ? Where are you ? I can't feel you, can't find you now.
I need you badly, where are you ? Don't hide from me already, come out ? can, i beg you to come out.
I exchange my whole life of happiness just for you to come out. i don't mind living in pain and agony just to let you come out.

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All these is handwritten, i never copy and paste.

Hahs, guess won't be updating my blog too often till Nov 12
O's level starting tomorrow, i feel quite stress out. But thanks to baby, my stress level wasn't that high now :D

Today went to baibai with baby, pray hope she bless me that i can pass my O's
I know i didn't study really hard these few months, i was busy playing and going out that why i would hope my wish will come true.
Im scare if i fail, my parent would have bad impression of baby. I don't want )':
I would kill myself 100 times with a knife and still don't think it enough.
Perhaps it was me that giving my ownself plenty of stress, but all i want is i don't want my parent to think bad about baby.

He the guy i love, the guy i want to be with, the guy i cannot lose, the guy i worked hard for, the guy i want my whole family to know, the guy that mean a lot to me and the only guy that have the right to take away my life and my heart
You know what i want now ?
I want my O's level pass, i want you to hug me to sleep, i want you to come my house, i want to spend endless time and nights with you, i want to keep on holding your hand and never let go, i want to buy plenty of couples things with you, i want to spend countless of happy moments with you, i want to keep on saying iloveyou to you, i want you to totally become my life, i want to take plenty of nicenice photos and all i want is you !

Whatever i say i really mean it )': I want you, if there no you i rather to be a living dead.
You my life, you my heart and my everything. Lose you im like suiciding.
Sometime when we don't talk to each other, i fear of quarreling with you im really scare, i never know what if the next quarrel come your feeling will fade, you will love me less or you will become colder to me.
I really scare till im really cries now when i think of it.
Everytime we say and promise to each other we won't quarrel but it always happen.
Why everytime we quarrel both of us are so stubborn and wanted to win so much, but guess i need to learn to be less stubborn and always be the first one to give in.
Sometime i really hate my character, im like a different person when im happy and when we quarrel.

I was looking thru ryan and his stead photos, somehow im jealous and envy them.
They look so happy, they don't fight often. And the girl is so much auto and initiative than me.
When the times pass we can't go back to that period even we really regretted so much that time we never do something we should.
This is how i feel, i never did much as a girlfriend will do when i started to be with baby.
I have so much regretted now, i always never do those things i needed to do and something obviously i know it in my heart i must do but i choose to ignore it

Seriously i envy those couple that are good but there times i hate them also -.-
I hate them being so lovely, i hate them being so like a girlfriend to their boyfriend, i hate them that they know what to do with each other, i hate them they always know what the right things to do, i hate them that their happy time seem to be more than me, i hate them that they do not quarrel as often as us, i hate them cause they make me jealous and envy.
I don't want to jealous and envy them and i really hope i can don't but sometime i just fail to do it as i always choose the wrong things to do.

Don't know why i cries when writing this post, my heart just don't feel good.
I don't know why maybe recently haven been enjoying much with baby, other than spending time, playing dota, talking to him. We haven been going out and play much and maybe it like this i didn't feel much love ?
I don't know, i don't feel much love. hahaa, or i have been asking too much already as he is always giving me ? i don't know, i don't have answer to this.
The only time i really feel love recently is that time when we watching dvd, you was hugging me and i went to sleep and wake up see you still awake and still hugging me.
I feel a lot love that time, hahaa. Wonder when i can have this love again ? After Nov 12 ? Maybe bahs, hahaa

Alright, gonna stop posting. Im like written a composition already LOL!
Okays okays, end here. Gonna continuing to study biology ! Hahaa, good luck jasmine.

Lols, guess no one know how badly i want to cry and just stab myself into my heart and die.
Yea i just can't ignore this thinking / feeling to become positive.
I prefer i overcome it and become positive this way i won't feel so negative already.

Bi never answer my call, you this dumbdumb ! Make me cry till so badly while keep on redialing you.
Do you know how terrible is that, do you know how badly i need you, do you know how badly i want to talk to you ?
I want to throw all my feeling to you already, but call your house. Talk with your mum for a while just now.
It make me feel better, she said you went to sleep once you came home.
It make me feel safer, im scare because of all these make you go smoke and drink somemore.
Don't smoke anymore and drink anymore can ? I try my best to accept you smoke and drink but it really hard to take it .
I can't imagine it, what if smoking really make us separate how ? I don't want so i only can fulfill your others desire but not smoking and drinking.

Im much better really much better now, how i wish you will awake now can share my thinking with you.
Tell you this life i only want you to comfort me, love me, hug me to sleep, wipe my tears, be there when i need you, be my only love, say i love you to me, say i miss you.
I only want you to do all these to me only, i don't want others, you aren't suppose to share your love to other people also.

I regret so much i went to this chalet it because i wanted to spend more time, fun time with you.
But ended up keep having unhappy things.
I planed well for tomorrow, im just wondering tomorrow you going to find job or want to pei me go out study and play ?
I don't know >:/ I just know i love you !
I want to spend time with you tomorrow baby, before that morning i will go find you >:/ So if no door go in i going stay outside already

Seriously i have no more energy to hold on to my O's level
I want to fail it, i want to give it up
I don't want to take anymore i really cannot take it anymore.
Ahs -'- fck stop giving me stress asking me to pass my O's
I can't mean can't, i don't even want to try cause i scare i try le also won't pass.
FCK lahs, flare up. Giving my O's level up already, not going to work hard i can just throw my book aways.

Sorry bi, i really can't take your hope. Im mentally tired really tired already.
There no more energy i can hold on to myself and carry on.
This saturday I really wanted to overnight but possibility not high also, so if im not overnight im not going already.
I need to rest, i want to cut off contact from everything and everyone.
So if i not going, don't bother to contact me that day. Cause you can't contact dao me !
Im tired really i feel so lonely, no one understand ? I don't even want to approach my boyfriend.
He so tired from him work already, he has so much hope for me. I really scare i will make you moody or what.
Ahs guess i go sleep early, fcking mood. it not nice -'-

I love this guy here ! ♥


Second post of the day, Third post of the blog (:
Today just went to had my haircut at yishun, i loving my hair much now (: Thanks Aunt macy!
Hahaa, im just waiting for my O's to end. Going to dye my hair together with baby, told him about he agree :D
Suddenly now have the passion of going shopping but this time is with my baby !

My heart feel pain for baby, he working so hard )':
I promise not to anyhow spend his money, i don't want to anyhow spend his hardworking money.
That money is change for his sweats and tears, i don't want it. I spend also spend till not happy )':

Babybaby, November let go find a better easier job and work together ? okaysokays?
I love you! ♥ Don't ever leave me, forever give my your love okays ?
Hahaa, he sleeping now. He super tired, i can feel it. Poor thing, this job isn't for this age.
The fcking agency given him this job ? Their eye pajiao -.- My baby still so young and obviously this job it isn't right for him -'-
And one more i fcking not going back to sell shoes ! It corrupted in there, fcking asshole -'-
Go fck those shoes you have, with my cousin around you aren't like this without him you give me a fcking answer.
Laughs ! Corrupted company ! -'- pui !

Seriously what for getting so over for a company like this ?
I must be joking, hahaa.
I miss my baby now ): Okays lahs, gonna stop posting im resting early today too !

I really love this two picture, see im so blissful :D Ilovemyboyfriend he mine future husband ♥


My baby is sleeping now (: He starting his first day of work later on.
Poor baby got to wake up early )': Jiayous okays, will be supporting you.
Every successful man behind has a woman that support him ♥
Later on going out with esther, jiazheng. Wondering should i cut my hair ?
I want to try to cut short seriously :0 But i don't dare.

Anyways i just want to say I have a wonderful laogong.
ilovehim alot, he mine no one gonna take him aways from cause i will be holding him tight.
Yea, i brought a ring for both of us (: I pretty love this ring a lot, hahaa.
Thinking of buying wallet and water bottle for him.
His wallet going to spoil fast and he working now ? Sure need a lot of water so thought of buying ?
Nevermind, gonna see how it goes later on :D
Now is 4am ! Yea, im not asleep cause i miss my baby badly.
This dumbass, really make me feel happy and unhappy about him )':
Happy cause he is mine and forever.
Happy cause he really love me alot alot
Happy cause we are lucky to be together for so long already
Happy cause we both are working hard towards our future(:
Happy cause he will marry me ! Hahaa.

Unhappy cause i can't keep it to my promise everytime. It my bad )':
But seriously i will try to speak up ! love you love you love you.
Im under your spell (: Your love spell, it make me want to love you more, miss you more, care for you more, want to be with you more.
But you aren't any better cause you under my curse ♥
Okays lahs, i going offline le. Going to rain sooon ~ Will update later in the day (:

New blog, abandon my old blog already. That one have a lot of memories but just don't want to continue using it.
Anyways i don't feel like linking anyone on my blog :0

Seriously sometime things won't goes your ways. When you hoped it will end this ways, but it end the opposite ways.
When sometime you don't like other people to talk this ways or do these things, they just do it in their own ways.
Maybe i being too controlling on others? I don't know, okays since things is this ways.
Won't control much with people around me already.

Even i had my shopping spree yesterday, but i still fcking not happy.
My level of happiness is very low, sometime i seem happy but there is a slight unhappy in my happy.
Hahaa, confusing right ? I know cause i seem to don't understand myself too .
And ya, everyone has been wishing me well for my O's and wanted to pass. But i just keep running aways from studying.
Im scare to study, scare that if i study i still fail. I don't want try my best, if want i want to get it.
Parent, relatives, my cousin, boyfriend, friends and everyone. Asking me to pass and telling me how much they hope that i can get into poly.
But i just can't take all of your hope. I just can't, scare i fail all your hopes is destroy by me.
Making you all disappointed and give up hope for me that the worst. I don't want, should have gone to ite last year instead of staying back for secondary 5

Been going out, hasn't really study much. Hais -'- fml
I has no interest and confidence in studying, cause myself has even given up hope os studying already.
I don't know, i want to be happy can i ? I really want to be truly happy, but till now nothing is truly happy.
If that one day everything is happy i dare to say there is sure something sad, fck up and whatever will happen to make the day worst.
Cause it happen everytime, can i laugh one whole day? I don't think can, there no hope for that already hahaa (:
Smiling in pain and not in joy. Nice phrase hahaa !

Okays lahs, shall not blog much also. Just blogging to say everything, Bye !

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