Lols, guess no one know how badly i want to cry and just stab myself into my heart and die. Yea i just can't ignore this thinking / feeling to become positive. I prefer i overcome it and become positive this way i won't feel so negative already.
Bi never answer my call, you this dumbdumb ! Make me cry till so badly while keep on redialing you. Do you know how terrible is that, do you know how badly i need you, do you know how badly i want to talk to you ? I want to throw all my feeling to you already, but call your house. Talk with your mum for a while just now. It make me feel better, she said you went to sleep once you came home. It make me feel safer, im scare because of all these make you go smoke and drink somemore. Don't smoke anymore and drink anymore can ? I try my best to accept you smoke and drink but it really hard to take it . I can't imagine it, what if smoking really make us separate how ? I don't want so i only can fulfill your others desire but not smoking and drinking.
Im much better really much better now, how i wish you will awake now can share my thinking with you. Tell you this life i only want you to comfort me, love me, hug me to sleep, wipe my tears, be there when i need you, be my only love, say i love you to me, say i miss you. I only want you to do all these to me only, i don't want others, you aren't suppose to share your love to other people also.
I regret so much i went to this chalet it because i wanted to spend more time, fun time with you. But ended up keep having unhappy things. I planed well for tomorrow, im just wondering tomorrow you going to find job or want to pei me go out study and play ? I don't know >:/ I just know i love you ! I want to spend time with you tomorrow baby, before that morning i will go find you >:/ So if no door go in i going stay outside already