New blog, abandon my old blog already. That one have a lot of memories but just don't want to continue using it. Anyways i don't feel like linking anyone on my blog :0
Seriously sometime things won't goes your ways. When you hoped it will end this ways, but it end the opposite ways. When sometime you don't like other people to talk this ways or do these things, they just do it in their own ways. Maybe i being too controlling on others? I don't know, okays since things is this ways. Won't control much with people around me already.
Even i had my shopping spree yesterday, but i still fcking not happy. My level of happiness is very low, sometime i seem happy but there is a slight unhappy in my happy. Hahaa, confusing right ? I know cause i seem to don't understand myself too . And ya, everyone has been wishing me well for my O's and wanted to pass. But i just keep running aways from studying. Im scare to study, scare that if i study i still fail. I don't want try my best, if want i want to get it. Parent, relatives, my cousin, boyfriend, friends and everyone. Asking me to pass and telling me how much they hope that i can get into poly. But i just can't take all of your hope. I just can't, scare i fail all your hopes is destroy by me. Making you all disappointed and give up hope for me that the worst. I don't want, should have gone to ite last year instead of staying back for secondary 5
Been going out, hasn't really study much. Hais -'- fml I has no interest and confidence in studying, cause myself has even given up hope os studying already. I don't know, i want to be happy can i ? I really want to be truly happy, but till now nothing is truly happy. If that one day everything is happy i dare to say there is sure something sad, fck up and whatever will happen to make the day worst. Cause it happen everytime, can i laugh one whole day? I don't think can, there no hope for that already hahaa (: Smiling in pain and not in joy. Nice phrase hahaa !
Okays lahs, shall not blog much also. Just blogging to say everything, Bye !