Jasmine Lim Tze Huan, ♥ AngTengXiang
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I'm going to bed after finish posting this post.
This post tried not to use any smiley face cause my mood isn't that happen also.
I'm not in a good mood, no good ):
I'm getting alone well with my classmate, think through whole night.
Should continue stay in this course, i want poly life. Ya, whatever i say in 2010 is right yet to me now.
It doesn't matter whether go i get into poly with a course of my interest. It doesn't matter already.
I hate ite though, yet i can get good friends in ite. I just don't like studying in ite, for now im trying to catch up with my poor attendance.
I don't want to get debar from examination! Poly is my aim yet i can't withstand my craving for having fun and not serious in school work.

Enough regretting, i see through it. Poly and money is the most important things for me now.
I need these both badly now.
After so long, still want to keep everything to myself. I doesn't want to saying it out hurting you yet in the end i get hurt also.
So keeping within myself hurting myself is the best !
I'm admit, sometime i walk off hoping you to chase after me is because i'm afraid,
I doesn't want to the one staying by your side only.
I need to know you need me also, not by just say you miss me till you cry. I know you miss me yet i isn't you.
I don't know how you think, i don't know how you feel, i don't know how long you can love me, i don't know, i really don't know..
I need your action to prove yet when i was hoping inside myself that you will do these but just because i say don't need you don't do..
Does it mean if one day i'm really leaving i say don't bother chasing me mean you really won't ask me to stay..
You never know how scare i'm, the longer we being together the more you don't care about me, the more i'm like being cast aside.. The more you won't do things unless i told you.

I don't want, i don't accept your saying of we been together for so long so close already so that why never did as much as before.
If it like this why am i still trying so hard, so hard to be a girlfriend you want, so hard fulfilling yout wish...
Why i'm feeling only me, it only me, I feel unsecure.
How bad i feeling like crying after our first year first month.. You even forget, you joke around yet im not.
I take everything between us seriously, okays. Not i doesn't want to tell things to you face to face, im just couldn't bear cause looking at you i wouldn't bear to hurt you, don't bear to trouble you.
So you know nothing, im not blaming you. It just my heart feel so empty.
Is it that tiring to try a bit more telling me things. Im not that difficult to talk with, it only you want to do it a not ..
You never know sometime your laughter hurts me also.. hahaa, you know how bad im crying while typing all these ? It hurt, i just wished my heart stop.

hahaa, okays uhs try guessing what i written in the big white space on top! It a secret okays!(: Done posting! Off to sleep, hope i doesn't have pluffy eyes tomorrow

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