Jasmine Lim Tze Huan, ♥ AngTengXiang
Eighteen, SixteenJanuary
SixFebruary2010, One.Year Four.Month

: Dearest Hubby February Six Meijin Zinc Daz Jack
: Amy Esther Justine Joel Jiazheng Karine TeckLee

Asked myself is it worth keep on making both of us so tired so heart broken ?
Yea i tried my hardest already but i just can't make it everytime. To other i may not seem change im still fcuking the same from the beginning.
Be it i have or i don't have, what i know is i want to kill myself off -_-

Whos doesn't want to be happy but i just keep on ruining it. Im a jinx, with me my grandmother, uncle and cousin die within 2 years.
Next is who already hahaa, god you love to make my life happy and then pull me down to hell.
Just realise the only place i can have whatever i want is only in dream.
I felt after so many fight i walking back to my old self. I can't open up anymore not can't is i find it hard to but im still trying so hard to do everything you like but fail.
Sometime during this time, i think back the happy time and think in myself am i dreaming or whatever has happen is illusion.

Had a dream just now when i sleep, dream of i shouting at you cause i can no longer take it.
But you didn't don't care you chase after me hugged me and forget about the fight and say don't care about the fight already.
Sometime i wish you can be like this but you just want to analyse what come out from the fight.
I don't want, everytime analyse my guilt level increase and i feel myself so cheap cause you to be so heartbroken but still stick with you.

Whatever is it, i feel like giving up. There a lot more things i keep it to myself and not saying cause i dare to say you will feel hurt.
Cause you can't take, so i choose to take yours rather than you take mine.
You know demanding too much from me you will get nothing in the end. Even though i tried and tried.
Do you know when i say i want to give up trying but i never once give up.
I try to not do whatever you don't like but you just keep one doing things i don't like.
Thing like this i hoped you will do it as well but .. nevermind
I wanted to find you to stop but you just post on facebook say you going out till midnight.
I know you will say if you are important to me, if it even midnight i can go out and find you also.
You are important, i can go find you but i just don't have the courage,
You thinking everytime you walk away alone you the one feel hurt, looking at the back view of your walking aways isn't good either.
You have no idea yesterday i have the thought of jumping down when grom top i see you walking off.
Because you my source of power of living well, but this power source often haywire cause me have to spend time in darkness fixing it.

Thinking everytime each couple walk pass me. I think do they have time like im having now ?
I don't think so, cause they look so happy with each other.
Tell you my wish for chirstmas and my birthday is all the same. I don't wish for great present what i just want is you and me happy no more fighting.

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