Jasmine Lim Tze Huan, ♥ AngTengXiang
Eighteen, SixteenJanuary
SixFebruary2010, One.Year Four.Month

: Dearest Hubby February Six Meijin Zinc Daz Jack
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Yays, im back from Malaysia. I had fun and full of coldness only.
When reach there was thinking of want to faster come back Singapore but last day there i wanted to stay even longer.

This the first time i went to genting with people that was not the same bloodline and totally not related to me.
The experience wasn't bad and wasn't very good also :0
Everything was a happy thing to me, but not for the second day till the half of third day.
This happen to destroy my mood for everything, nevermind i can't blame much also cause im the one causing this trouble to myself only.

First time i regret coming to holiday and so excited to this holiday.
I regretted at the moment we fight, i don't know what to do at that moment i wanted to stop the fight but i keep choosing the wrong thing.
Wanted to enjoy with you but you leave me to your family and left, i know now is all words whatever i say doesn't change anything.
There plenty of couple there, yea i walked around for 2 to 3 hours aimlessly ?
No where to go, nothing to do? Looking at those people with happy faces, felt the sharp pain in me.
I didn't wanted but i make it till like this.
Laogong you know something, i hated you to smoke but you purposely go buy cig. My mood already worst looking at it make it even more worst.
How the feeling of being left alone emotional in a foreign country, now i understand :D!

Whatever, first time cried so badly ): First time i hold someone so tightly scare he leave me. I don't even want him to have a distance between me. So no matter what i hold on to you no matter how you push me aways, i just need you badly.
I treasure every moment with you, everything you give, every little bit of effort you put in.
But i just don't know how to express my thoughts out properly and always cause misunderstanding.
Do you know it hurt badly when your brother say you hate me, i know you won't but the action you do show me you are.
Im trying to be strong but im still not that strong able to take everything.

okaysokays, continue saying my feeling it endless. Cause i really feel a lot of things at that point of time.
Anyways i just realise there is always guilt with me no matter how happy how painful i am.
The guilt follow me ): i fear of this guilt, i fear for you leaving me and really will let me go.
You know whenever you tell me to hold you tight i fear you cannot take my bads already.
Now i learn how to not making myself feel bad by knowing what things i can do. Like today asking me to buy FHM magazine for you is obviously i won't do it.
Doing this will only spoil my mood and make me feel bad, but if you want badly i don't mind buying it for you.

Whatever :D ! Laogong, thanks for giving my sucha good memories.
Bringing me go shopping, play roller coaster, walk around with me, joke with me, hugging me when im feel cold and give me warm, buy me Tea egg :), taking photos with me and most important giving in to me and making the first step.
i love you, believe me that you the first time i ever love a person.
Don't tell me there is a second person cause i know my heart wouldn't betray and love a second guy.
This sound nice and hard to do it. I know, cause this is what i feel.
Laogong, i know my stupidness and blur make you very xinku in this relationship im trying and learning how to become clever and more auto and trying to let you know i care, love and think of you everytime, every moment and second.

Designer: Jasmine Lim :D
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